It is with a grateful heart and much appreciation to the clients who have brought so much into my life in the last seven years that I announce my departure from being a primary photographer in the wedding industry.
Long hours on my feet, and at my desk have become to burdensome for my family. By the grace of God, after many prayers, I have been called into a leadership position at LuLaRoe (a clothing company), where I am excited to be blessing lives and strengthening families, while still blessing my own by my presence with them.I hope this sabbatical will afford me the opportunity to explore where I want to be as artist. I see many black and white, emotion filled images in my future as I take portraits when I have time.
To say that working as a primary photographer in the wedding industry has been a blessing is an understatement, I love what I have done with my life the last several years. I have grown as an artist and marketer and learned so much about how people see themselves and how I can, through photography, sometimes help them realize their own light. But I have also learned that you can't always make people open their eyes and see how blessed we all are, and how beautiful life is.. and that has become too large a burden to bare. I have poured so much of my self and my time in to what I have done for the last near decade that when I fall short, I literally cannot breathe through the anxiety of not meeting sometimes sky high expectations that now come along with living in a digital world completely full of pinterest perfect weddings. I am not a perfect person. I do not hit 100% of the shots I take. I feel I can no longer work within an industry where the standard has risen so high I feel the weight of my own humanity in a "picture perfect" setting will never be perfect enough. I believe with my whole heart that there are ideal clients out there for what I love and what I offer and want to hone in on that message before returning to the industry, if that is in the cards for my future.
Art is in the eye of the beholder and that alone makes working as an artist an incredible risk. One that I am taking a long stride away from for now, maybe forever, but definitely until my daughter is a good bit older.
Again, thank you so much to anyone who ever said a kind word, praised my work, gave me a high five or allowed me into their world for a day to be the person that made sure no one forgets what love on day one feels like. I will miss my Saturdays being temporarily adopted into your families and allowed to play such an important role... but I am going to take this time to really dig deep into my own family and love them hard to make up for the many weekends I didn't get to be there for them.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
I simply cannot say it enough.